Its the morning after Thanksgiving, and I am still full. I spent my Thanksgiving with two families. One with my friend and his mom , which was nice, and the other with my brother, sisters, nephews and niece, and that was also nice. Overall it was a good day
On to more a more pressing topic (pressing to me). My next desired stride to take in my “become an author” process is to read up on writing and read more in general. I know I’ve mentioned these things before but I, as expected, am still adjusting to the idea of writing a book or even blogs. I’m just taking long slow strides at the moment, but they are just as productive as striding at any other pace. The point is that no matter where I’m at in my walk, I am in the right place as long as I don’t give up. Sound 12 step-ish? Good. Those 12 steppers (me, formerly) are onto something!! Hopefully by reading writing books and other literature, I will grow in my skill. I have the heart for writing, the dream of authorship, and the brains to do it, but I do not have a lot of concrete writing skills. I actually haven’t attended a writing class or studied writing since I was in seventh grade, which was approximately fifteen years ago. I could use the education is what I’m saying.
I am still in disbelief that I am doing this. It’s all happening…in real life! If feels great to follow my heart into something I love. As far as I can remember, I’ve never done that before. Thank God for this whole directional change that’s happening within me but also externally.
I’m off my pink cloud. I am still excited about and committed to being an writer, but I’m settling into the reality that I am now a blogger. It’s a nice feeling, actually. It’s the feeling of home, career and hobby wise. I feel like I can maybe do this authorship thing. It’s like the saying goes, “you can do anything you put your mind to.” Well, hands down, I’ve put my mind to this and I know deep down that I am on the right track. I know it on a surface level too. I have other blogs that cover other areas of my life and those are moving along just fine like this one. Praise God. I have what it takes to stick to and commit to writing because of Him. Just thought I’d throw that out there. Thanks so much for reading.
I love writing so much! I can’t wait to learn more and grow in and through writing. Some people, sing, some dance, some teach, some save lives, but I believe everyone has a passion for something. I feel like I finally discovered my passion…the one activity that I love and the one activity that I’m passionate about. Expressing myself through writing. Wow. I am actually proud of myself for the first time in a very long time. I’m proud because I am finally appreciating me and committing to something productive that I love. There are also so many other things happening for me lately. Feel free to read my other blogs for details. I hope to write for a living some day. Don’t get me wrong, even if I write for free for the rest of my life I will be happy. I would just love to make a career out of this as well. It would be great. I have hope for continued happiness in the future, all because of a simple nudge in the right direction. I feel very excited about this. I’m having a hard time containing it. All I have to say is, thank God for the arts! The end for now.
As part of my journey to being a writer, I’ve been trying to read more books, blogs, magazines, etc. I got out of the habit of reading a long time ago. I love books and I love knowledge, I just chose to set aside the whole read the book to attain the knowledge I love having so much. Setting aside reading was a huge mistake that I am now correcting. Reading and writing…very important things. To receive and contribute, yeah? It’s hard to explain why I would ignore such a big hobby of mine. I will reveal that another day. The point is that I’m changing my life for the better. Not for anyone else but me. Changing for the better, as it applies to me, includes doing things I love, and realizing that I am capable and worthy of succeeding at such things. I am very grateful for those supporting me. To be clear, I am not doing this alone, I am just doing it for me alone. I even made a rule for myself in regards to my supporters. The rule is to only listen to supporters! That way, I am way less likely to give up. It’s so easy to listen to and remember negative comments, so I’m determined to cast negativity aside.
I am in the beginning stages of a few blogs, this being the first. Hopefully they will prepare me for a book or two. Whoa….I’m jumping ahead a little. I’m trying to keep my eye on the ball but also live in the present. I’m already jumping in to ahead to the bigness of my big journey. This blog is just the beginning of a big thing. I am trying very hard to overcome the challenges a new writer faces, as well as some unique setbacks of my own to overcome. On of which is having extremely high standards for myself. This rings true as far as my writing is concerned, as well as most or even all other areas of my life. Setting aside perfectionism, I will keep all other setbacks to myself for now. I’m trying to create suspense. Back to perfectionism. It is to the point of not doing things because I know that nothing is good enough to meet the standards I set for myself, so why try? What?! That’s sounds rediculous. But, for me, it’s so true. That’s one of the reasons why this is such a big journey for me. Writing is the most important of many things I plan to tackle. The first loving nudge I gave myself was permission to make this blog mine, mistakes and successes alike. I also gave myself permission to write as much or as little as I want. No more high standards! What a beautiful freedom.
I want to write a book. It is my dream. Nobody in my life knows that I plan to follow through with my dream. The reason for that is that I have to start out for myself and by myself. I cannot succeed and allow myself to be swayed by other people at the same time. This is for me, not them. Plus, I need to not worry about harsh critics in the form of people that I tend to seek approval from. I’m hoping to not seek approval through this process. This blog is my journey to success journal…it’s the first of a few blogs I plan to have. Very cool. Very exciting.